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To sum my life up, it has been an adventure from the start. The one thing I can say about it is the fact that I have loved and been loved. The question though that still remains: is love forever? I question it everyday, and seeing the divorce rate in the world, I am not sure that people really have and believe in a concept of something long term. The world's diversity and being so many different kinds of people, we are always threatened with someone or something being better. Which in fact leads to thoughts of infidelity and moving on to find that one person who is the perfect mate.

 

My life has been challenging to say the least; but one thing proven through every trial and error: I am stronger because of it and it inevitably made me who I am. I feel that it has made me a good person and has set my standards high as what I want in a mate. Ultimately, I believe that there is good in everyone, if they dig deep down inside.

God give us all this time on earth to live life. He wants us to not only achieve our goals but also to lose some battles. In fact, he wants to see us thrive in the adversities and challenges that the world has to give. So many times, we are kicked when we are already down and out. It is more about how we deal with it that makes us strive only to be better.

 

Many people would see my liver transplant as a bad thing. I see it as another shot at life. A chance to dig deeper in myself to be all I can be. I believe that through this magazine and the actions that we take together, we have ultimately bettered the world. Each and every day that you read the magazine, you ultimately help me achieve the goal of recognition that gives us the right to say that we are a success.

 

Saying Goodbye is always hard but its best to say goodbye when you have a chance to. It is not about not seeing the person again. It should be about all the memories you made a long the way. With that being said, I love you all and thank you for giving me the chance to tell you my story.

 

In closing, my column Life in a Small Town is a tribute to my life and everyone in it. I finally found a way to let those I love know how much they mean to me.

April 2008

 

I have always had a fixation for men that I can change or the bad boy type. I am not sure where this root began, but it is very much at the core of all my relationships. None more than the last.  I really like to feel needed and for me, when I am helping someone who is either mentally unstable, or physically unstable.  I thrive on being there to make things better.
 
I think this is the root of all the bad relationships that I have been in--None of them seem to work out, as hard as I try.
 
It is very much an insecurity I have, I have a need to draw off of the negatives of someone's life to make me feel fulfilled in that relationship by knowing that I can help and give them a real shot at life.
 
When, in fact, I am just now really taking strength from it all and making a life of my own.
 
For some reason, I have always felt that I needed a relationship to make me feel complete. This is not true though. These days, I see past all of that and know that I can be completely happy by myself.
 
I do not need someone who wants to control what I do, what I say, and who I can talk to. I realize now that I am the only one who can fulfill my destinies in life. I have a few more things I am going to accomplish over the next few years. One is, schooling. I begin courses in July, and look to major in Computers. While, I also want to make this non-profit a real success and offer the gay community a real organization that is there to benefit it.
 
With that being said, I wanted to let you know where I stand today in my life, and next week, I will let you get to know another very special person in my life. My little brother Wyatt X.

 


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